Ah December is here and what a year this has been. Heartbreak, loss, and self discovery. I can’t believe it has been a year since we said goodbye to my dad. I miss him sooooo much and there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of him. But I get by, because I know that he is with me every day. Every race I have run this year was dedicated to him. I’d like to think think that he is pretty darn proud of me.
2015 started crazy rough and I wallowed in self misery. There were times when I withdrew into myself and wanted to give up. Thank goodness I had friends and family who not only stood by me, but loved me enough to give me some tough love. I’ve lost some relationships that used to be strong and others have grown. I learned that I have let life happen to me for 42 years and learned that life is soooo much better when I realize that I can shape my own destiny.
Hold up… what? I can shape my destiny? You mean I actually have CONTROL over my life??? What the what???
I’ve learned that I am in the situation I am in due to my own actions. (yeah, this was a slap in the face!) Every action we take and do not take leads us to where we are in life. Good, bad, indifferent we have to take accountability. Once I realized that… I felt free. Now I realize that things happen in God’s timing, but only if we listen and follow what He is leading us to do.
I can honestly say that I am happy right now. I am still a work in progress but I am happy with who I am. I am taking charge of my life and making good decisions for myself. I am focused on my health, personal development, and taking steps toward financial freedom. I am working on being a better friend, a better sister, a better aunt, and a better daughter. A better Heather.
What a journey it has been and I am honestly looking forward to the journey ahead. Will it be easy? Nope. Will it be worth it? Absolutely!!
I recently received this new flower from Fellow Flowers– the Wildflower. This is my soulflower and truly describes my journey and how I have grown this year. “Willing to fall, determined to rise”. This flower symbolizes what 2016 will be. #theyearofthewildflower
I am truly excited about 2016 and what is in store for my future. But I am also excited about this month of December. It will be amazing what can be accomplished in 31 days when you make up your mind to succeed!!
So welcome to December 1st! I love the holiday season! I am planning on making new memories with my cherished family and friends. The season is only stressful if you make it that way. My challenge to you this month is to look at this life through the eyes of a child. Experience the wonder, the joy, the magic of the season. Focus on presence not presents. It truly is the most wonder filled time of the year!!!